possibly one of my last

seems like it has been a while. the last week or so has been a whirlwind, and it isn't looking like it will slow down any time soon. went to knoxville for the funeral -- after we all stood in line to give Brandy a hug, we went outside, crossed the street and stood in a circle and prayed. other people in my class may read this and disagree, but to me that was one of the most memorable moments we all have shared together.

my car is a tad screwed up again. and i got a parking ticket yesterday. it was raining (sort of -- misting), and i was holding the ticket while john and justin had the hood up on my car -- it wouldn't start. the lady who wrote the ticket walked by, and i wanted to ask her how exactly i was supposed to remove my car from one-hr parking when it wouldn't start, but i didn't. the problem seemed to be the starter, and so when john got the car to start, i couldn't really turn it off again -- so i drove to shelbyville and got a different car and then drove back to chattanooga fifteen minutes or so later -- lots of fun in the rain and storms to have been had by me.
... and actually a friend just filled me in a little re: mississippi and louisiana -- wow. sorry folks, my rumblings are nothing.

jessica just sent some pictures, but i am not too savvy -- can't figure out how to get them on here. i'll work on it and post them later.

yeah, this post is just a bit of an update...not too exciting. there is lots going on here and lots to think about -- but i am getting a little iffy about this blog -- and the public-ity of it. not the publicity, but the public-icity... :) does that make sense? i got an anonymous comment a while ago, and it shouldn't, but it kinda pricked me. i am scared to really open up ... and as a result to be misunderstood and judged. anyone can read these and take the thoughts any way they want. i knew this when i started...but i am just now starting to consider that this all may not be the best idea.

considering deleting nadyezhda... i don't want to, but i'll decide shortly.