¿Qué es esto?

i want to write tonight, but i am not sure how to put together my thoughts.

i am asking myself tonight this question: what is this? ¿Qué es esto? if someone could explain it to me, i would be most grateful. Have you ever opened your eyes in the morning and thought, "Was that a nightmare or a dream?" (Dream as in an adjective to describe something lovely.) Should you run in the nightmare or stand perfectly still in the dream? Are the waves crashing or rhythmically running on and then off the beach? Is your heart racing with fear or pounding with pleasant expectation? sometimes there is little difference, one to the other.

How can one thing be so wonderful in one breath and so entirely ludicrous in the next? ... so much so that you aren't exactly sure which category it fits into today: crazy or sane. How can you be ok one minute and entirely scared peeless the next minute when not one thing changed in that interim?


is it possible for the oddest, most unlikely scenario to become likely?
tal vez...